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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 14:01:22 GMT

family kisses and fammile misses.

sigh.

i am so tired.

i need a job to pay for my rent.

p.s. excuse the random rantings.

topic is:

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 04:57:47 GMT

i has subscribed to architectural record!!
woot woot woot... can't wait to get it in the mail.

and p.s. ellecanada totally sucks. it's such a waste of paper AND space (i hate it when i see it around the apartment all the time and then feel guilty for not reading it cause i paid for it already just to find disappointment again and again when i open it). oh and waste of money, obvi.

oh and p.p.s. time is so evil! ugh.

hmm...

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 03:58:42 GMT

kinda miss home.

crappy.

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 19:32:10 GMT

is how i feel.

i have no one to talk to.
and the only person i want to talk to, is away.
away.

so tell me, what should i say?
what should i do?

i'm sick of being pushed away.
being treated like nothing, like i'm a white 30pound piece of paper you can just crumple up and throw in the bin and no one would ever realize your non-existance.

i'm sick of balling my eyes out and swallowing my pitiful misery just to torture my brain and vomit all that on a piece of scribbled paper.

i tried, to go up there. and everytime i am up there, i find myself sliding all the way down.
square one, all over again.

so tell me, am i over reacting?
and please, be honest with me.

i just need to say:

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 14:52:37 GMT

that i hate this ship.
i do quite hate.
yes, hate.
ugh. hate.

so.

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 05:18:59 GMT

so, wow, i haven't blogged in a long time it seems.
and i usually only do when i'm really down/mad/sad/emo.

but today!
today i feel great.

because
- i have finished my booklet/report (although i had planned to finish that last week)
- cleaned the apartment and brought my newly sprayed table (which was stolen/found) in
- AND THEN put my newly bought flat screen on it (totally awesome)
- put up my clock on the wall - a cute green frog a clock
- fake nailed my sweet looking shelves on the wall
- put up my design on the wall and hung my keys on it... woot woot
- found out my beloved cousin is GETTING MARRIED. TRIPLE WOOT!!
- realised that i might be able to sneak home for a short 3 weeks instead of a long summer. a hurray.
- managed my time good (not as good but still good enough) so far. quadruple woot!!

ahhhhhhh.

the end. :)

p.s. where art thou my friends? i haven't been talking to anyone. :(

Monday, September 14, 2009

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 04:48:22 GMT

that life is obviously way past me.

you don't see it as i do.

so maybe you can SHUT THE HELL UP ALREADY.

time and money. *rant

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 05:13:51 GMT

oh yes.
time and money.

the two issues i have yet to learn how to deal with properly.

i'm thinking, i wanna get a guitar.
i'm thinking, i need a bike lock.
i'm thinking, i need to get a caller id or a voicemail so i can stop missing potential job offers.

but time, and money.
oh time.
but money.

i thought about quitting this one job that i despise oh so much so i can have more time to clean apartment, pack this whole apartment and then move and then register for all sorts of shit. but then there is also this other issue, called money. yeah money. what is it with this two assholes.

thing is,
i haven't been spending my money on partying.
i haven't been buying myself pretty new clothes and shoes.
i haven't been travelling like how i planned to.
i haven't been throwing away money on a high and mighty lifestyle.

as a matter of fact, i have been cheap as fuck. cheap. like a dog. i don't even wanna BUS to work because i have to pay $2.25. i WALK back from work because i didn't feel like paying for a damn bus fare. i walk home starving and then resort to cooking my own food instead of just getting subway. yes, i am indeed, CHEAP AS FUCK.

SO WHERE IS MY TIME AND MONEY?

this is what i feel:

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 18:08:43 GMT

i'm bored and lazy.
and desperate for 3GS to be IN STOCK.

actually i'm just bored and i like to spend money when i'm bored because it makes me happy.

but dammit, be in stock already.

one thing

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 19:09:02 GMT

there's one thing that some people like to ask when i talk to them on msn.

"what time is it there?"
at the very beginning of the conversation before asking how am i etc etc.

i.e. :
"hey how are you doing?"
"good, what time is it there?"

i always feel like saying what do you care.
cause really, does it really matter? really?

okay lah bitchy.
finally got apartment, a swweet swweeet one tooo! :)

i love.

chiao.